Welcome to the Jungle

I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like mummy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover hey, "Fuck you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky

If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it...

I've been the girl with her middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: i don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go you can't take back what you've done
So find a new lifestyle
A reason to smile
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You whisper to me
There's no reason to cry...

If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it...

You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin

If God is a DJ...If God... say If God is a DJ, Then life is a dance floor so
Get your ass on the dance floor now

After a couple days on the road, it became very apparent to Razabeth that she would require more than the clothes on her back to make this work. While the horse seemed content to continue on regardless of the weather, the girl did not share her work ethic. It was spring… and in the greenbelt of the Empire that meant rain. Lots of it.

There really was not much left of the highborn lass that had set out afire with righteousness. It was very likely she had drowned a while back. Now her long hair was tangled and pulled back into a rough bun on the back of her neck. Her once bright red dress was dark with water and grime. The Popinjay had transformed… into a sparrow.

“At least we blend in…” She muttered, half to herself and half to the mare. It hadn’t taken long for her to start talking to the animal. Questioning her sanity had not been high on her list of things to do lately. Regardless, she was right. When they finally gave up and approached one of the many homesteads that scattered the landscape, she looked like nothing more than some errant farm girl out for a joyride in her mother’s old wedding dress.

It seemed a harmless place at least. A young boy with a brilliant shock of white blonde curls sat in the doorway of the modest farmhouse absently digging in the dirt with a stick. Nearby an aged and somewhat overweight spotted dog lounged, keeping an aloof but watchful eye over the proceedings, As Razabeth drew closer the dog raised it’s head only long enough to let out a lazy warning bark. Dropping whatever he was doing the child stood up, brushing his hands on his pants.

“Mama!” He called over his shoulder before cautiously venturing closer, nervously clenching his little fists. Sliding off her horse to meet the welcoming party the young woman couldn’t help but smile. He really was quite adorable despite all his efforts to seem brave.

“Hello there, little one…” Razabeth reached out her hand in greeting and was met by a somewhat grubby, albeit welcoming response.

“G’day ma’am… “ He responded automatically, still polite despite his obvious distraction. He barely gave the young woman a passing glance. He was far too busy looking up at horse, who considered him in kind, ears perked forward and nose outstretched. “THAT is a very big horse.” He noted a little over-casually, nodding gravely towards it. “Can I pet it?” He asked, his eyes wide with obvious awe.

“Well…” The girl looked up at the horse in a considering manner. Not entirely sure herself if it was a good idea. “She hasn’t eaten me yet… so I think you are safe. By this time the old dog had come over to inspect the newcomers as well, grumbling the whole way, it’s tail wagging in a most threatening manner. It didn’t take long before they were all making friends and the yellow horse had taken to nibbling on the child’s hair amid shrieks of glee.

“In all of creation Jacob! What have you gotten into…” As “Mama” rounded the corner, the whole three-ring circus froze. She paused in the doorway in disbelief, wash-rag still in hand. Even Razabeth had the good sense to at least look sheepish under her disapproving gaze. Jacob looked at his feet and scuffed his little boots in the mud. The horse continued to determinately crane her head towards the boy despite several ineffectual attempts at batting her away. The dog pranced and let out another mournful bay.

For all she was worth, Mama couldn’t help but laugh.

While she lay on her back in the dust, looking up into the misty blue sky, Razabeth became aware of how very grateful she was that there was no one there to witness her final humiliation. The horse quite peacefully browsed the foliage, it's subtle rusting telling her it was close nearby somewhere out of her line of sight. A cold sense of emptiness began to set in. For a moment she closed her eyes and surrendered to it. Allowed herself to feel the full implication of the choices she had made in the past few hours. Two tear trails burned cold against her flushed cheeks. She allowed herself just this small moment of self-pity. Then she got angry.

Bolting suddenly upright she shot the unsuspecting animal a look that could kill lesser things. To its credit it did startle, shooting her a wounded look over it’s shoulder. Of course this only served to jerk the poor girl off balance and into the dirt once again. A raw choked scream bubbled up from somewhere deep inside and clawed it’s way into the serenity of the morning. Birds burst from the neighboring fields and took wing. The horse began to sidestep away from her, eyes growing wide and ears pinned back. This time she used it’s momentum to pull her lurching to her feet. If she had gotten this far, she certainly would not be defeated by… this… animal!

“Stop it!” She growled. “Just… stop.” There was a certain no-nonsense tone to her commands that seemed to confuse the beast. It lowered it’s head and examined her with one very large brown eye, snorting loudly. Widening her stance Razabeth pulled the long driving reins tight and began to work her way up them one hand over the other, taking one decisive step at a time. “If you think… for one second… that you are smarter than me…” She darted forward and grabbed the bridle just in time. Of course since the horse was significantly taller than her, this did not stop it from simply raising it’s head rather abruptly, pulling her feet completely off the ground.

“DOWN.” She hissed through gritted teeth. Trying to keep herself calm in an attempt to salvage a very bad situation. “Down.” She tossed the reins over the horse’s head and made an awkward grab for them on the other side. The horse took a couple of waddling steps back. “Head down… Come on girl… Down.” Razabeth cooed as she groped around, finally getting her hands on the slick leather. Two intense blue eyes stared directly into one brown one, as she began to apply a little bit of pressure at a time to the restraint, feeling the mare submitting to the urging. “Doooown… Goood girl!” The last was a sigh of relief as toes and then feet touched down to earth.

They both stood there like that for a moment, the girl taking deep breaths and slowly relaxing, one muscle at a time; the horse watching her in return, chomping thoughtfully on it’s bit. Once they had both taken the other’s measure, Razabeth picked her way carefully out of the underbrush and back onto the road. Taking a quick look around, she made very sure they were still alone. Taking extra time observing the road they had come in on, as if looking for some sign of pursuit.

“You may not know it yet… Horse…” she paused awkwardly, realizing that she had no idea what the mare’s name was. “But we are wanted women.” She looked despairingly up at the yoke and heaved a heavy sigh. It was very high. She knew from experience. Holding the reins in her left hand and reaching up as high as she could she barely grasped at the knob there with both hands. “Luckily for me…” She hopped a couple times in preparation. ”God has been kind enough to give you handles.” With that, a pained groan, and some frantic scrambling Razabeth was once more mounted and on her way.

To where, no one could really say.

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that? It's seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.

1. Name: Elizabeth June Schmidt. Also Lizz, Bess, Lady Elzbieta, Lady B... Libby. The list goes on.

2. Age: 32, turning 33 on June 24th

3. Location: Chilliwack, BC, Canada, North America, Earth

4. Occupation: Unemployed hairdresser.

5. Partner: Ian Schmidt, married June 20, 2009

6. Kids: Hopefully one someday, only fur kids for now.

7. Brothers/Sisters:
Sister, Kathryne Hillen
Sister, Holly Goebel
Half-Brother, Christopher Wiens
Half-Sister, Chelsea LeBlanc

8. Parents:
Father, David Hillen - Deceased
Mother, Daryl Wheeler - MIA
In-laws, Barbara and Arnold Schmidt

9. Pets:
5 ferrets: Squish, Slinky, Mischief, Mayhem, Havok
5 Bettas: Lucky, Sparky, Luene, Augustine, Valentine
Tropical Aquarium

10. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
1. Just had to give up my horse to a more experienced trainer... It was a hard blow. He was quite dangerous at the last trainer show I brought him to and it was the general consensus that he was too much for me. After working with him for a year it was really hard to let him go.
2. I had to close my salon. My parter and I have both been hit with a lot of life this year and we weren't making enough money. Not enough money means stress and not being able to pay for the mortgage. So we are turning the salon back into a basement suite. I have as of yet, been totally unsuccessful finding work.
3. Because of these big upsets I am currently floating and completely directionless. I am very depressed. Winter is always a downturn for me. All the plans I had going personally for this next year are on hiatus until things ground somehow. I need money, I need stability, I need a job. I need a PURPOSE.
4. Ian and I run The Viadrina Outpost, a medieval group based out of the Empire of Medieval Pursuits. We have roughly 30 members and have secured the use of a semi-permanent practice and event site in Aldergrove. We have been working for the past 2 months rebuilding the structures for this purpose and hope to be finished and ready to go for our first large event on the site, Ostara (Norse Easter) in March.
5. I got married in June. We had a night-time fire-lit ceremony. It still all feels like a dream that never happened. We went on a tour of Nova Scotia and Prince Edward Island for our honeymoon. If feels like years ago. It was my first real holiday. Sometimes I wish we never left that Island...

If you were to be at the Great West Crossroads at a startlingly early hour of the morning, during a rather damp spring in March, you would have been treated to an equally startling sight. What appeared to be a fine young lady, perhaps of the Courts themselves, with her red gold hair piled high in curls, appeared to be out riding in her Sunday best.

This would normally be enough to provoke a double take from the natives of this rural township for sure. Of course, upon a closer look, it became quite apparent that she was not entirely enjoying the ride either... Her hair was certainly a tad awry and her dress of rich velvet was damp from repeated tumbles in the grass. All of this could have caught the eye of any passer-by, but perhaps the strangest part of the whole strange event was the Ladies noble... steed?

It was a fine animal for sure, with it's coat almost the exact shade of it's riders own coiffure, as was all the rage in the finer schools of Ladies Riding. It was certainly magnificent as it trotted quite briskly down the road with it's head held high. It was indeed... HUGE... really, no other word would suffice. And it was, most certainly, a plow horse.

Part of the problem most likely came from the sheer discrepancy in size between rider and mount. As the beast was most assuredly tall, at least as big as the warhorses that the knights rode into battle. Yet, significantly broader, with enormous dinner plates for hooves. While the rider would have been considered delicate under normal circumstances. She was definitely of high birth with the generously curvy body of one whom lives indoors and doesn't have to work the land for her living. She was certainly working hard now, however, as her apple red cheeks and bright eyes betrayed.

The remaining difficulty became more obvious as the horse spun, quite gracefully mind you - considering it's size, in a tight pirouette directly in the center of the Crossroads. Perhaps the animal was unsure as to what direction to take when presented with four roads stretching out in each direction. Or perhaps the birds that had burst from the bushes lining the road were of the horse eating variety. Regardless, the girl, who had been holding quite tightly to some make-shift reins. continued in a forward direction and landed quite abruptly on the ground. Reins still in hand.

Ah yes, there was no saddle! That would explain it! Without all the fluff and bother of the court dress to trick the eye the image of the plow horse was now complete. A yoke and harness where all the lady had to control the horse. and they appeared to be not working very well without the plow and whip to accompany them. As a matter of fact, now that it was free of her influence, the horse quite contentedly ambled over to the afore mentioned bushes for a snack, dragging her through the dust behind it.

Tags are people who are mentioned in here...so...if you're tagged...they asked about you. lol.

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
I really have no personal boundaries.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Schmidt, Oh wait.. it already is!

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Mostly sleepy than anything else:P

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Last night, Ian Schmidt

5. Do you have natural hair color?
Underneath the highlights somewhere.

6.What song lyrics are in your head?
All The Same - Sick Puppies

7. What are you excited for?
Putting up my Christmas tree

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Went on a glorious trail ride full of adventure with Dora and Becca and Libby and watched the sun set from horseback on the way home.

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Ian

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
My morning medications.

11. Have a best friend?
I am married to him.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
More scared to fall out of it.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
I think they can hit stage one... Lust/infatuation/crush/Stage two take time and maturity.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
I rarely get violent.

15. What time is it right this second?
9:27 am

16. What do you want right now?
Financial Security

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
I took some pictures of the people at the vaulting show last weekend... Not sure what else.

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
taken

19. When was the last time you cried?
Last night

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
No, I am pretty much an orphan. My in-laws are great however.

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
I trust others until they let me down. It is harder than it should be...

22. How fast does your mind change?
As fast at logic and intuition allows.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now?
Of course... Mostly grandpa. Sometimes Bobbi.

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Ok is a cop out. I am rarely ok.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Lack of self-esteem/immatuirty/a complete lack of responsibility for themselves and others.

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
Financial Security

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Finding a job, Christmas... Riding.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yeah, it isn't nearly as shocking when I woman does it :P

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Just a couple minutes ago.

30. When is your next road trip?
No idea. I don't really have the money for it right now. I would love to go see my sister and the rest of my family sometime this month, but reality tells me otherwise.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes.

32. How's your heart?
Battered and bruised.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
I worry about it all the time.

34. Do you think somebody loves you?
Yes.

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Shower/work

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
Next time I see someone that needs kissing.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes. Just before he left.

38. Who do you not get along with?
People that refuse to take responsibility for the consequences of their mistakes... so about 70 percent of the population of the earth.

39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
From today or yesterday?

40. What are you wearing right now?
PJ's

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
IWe would probably drive each other crazy then fall asleep in each others arms.

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Hmm a couple weeks? Nom nom nom.

43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Alexsander/Tabitha

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
Sleepy and groggy.

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not really, I should be getting ready for work.

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
When they ache.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Crying.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
EJS

49. Whos the first B in your contacts?
Bobbi Baker...

50. When's the last time you laughed very hard?
Last night.

51. Your number 1 friend walks out of your life... do you go after them?
Depends on why they left.

52. Last awkward moment?
question 49... Last weekend.

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
The dark can't hurt me, but things IN the dark can...

54. Do you have good vision?
Not at all.

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
When EMP fighting.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
I don't remember.

57. Are you Irish?
Only in spirit.

58. Do you use chap stick?
If my lips need it.

59. Do you have any scars?
Yes, several.

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
No. Usually all they have to do is apologize like they mean it.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
No, but I live with her.

62. Name the last person to text you?
Barbara Schmidt.

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
I don't think so. Never really seen it end well.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do right now?
I could, but people might think I was a lazy slob :P

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yep, Dated a couple.

Where'd #66 go??

67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Wake up would be most likely ;) Been there, done that.

68. Do you fall for people easily?
Yes.

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Within the last 5 minutes I think. I am wealthy in hugs.

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Sometimes.

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yep.

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
All The Same - Sick Puppies

73. Want someone back in your life?
I am not good at letting people go.

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
I hope so.

75. What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
Wine.

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Yes, I know many musicians and that makes me happy.

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
I don''t do lies well.

78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Married is pretty clear to me.

79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I have to try every day. People notice when I don't.

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Falling in love is the easy part.

NEXT ONE

Today, did you see someone that makes you smile instantly?
Yes, Ian.

Has someone ever told you they will love you forever?
Ian and Jesus.

So the last person you kissed asks you to marry them, you say?
Done and done.

Do you like road trips?
Yes. The more spontaneous and the further the better.

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
A couple I think

Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
I don't have a lot of money to waste :P

Have you ever lived with a ex girlfriend/ boyfriend?
Ex husband.

Have you kissed someone in the past few days?
Yes, several.

Does the last person you kissed mean a lot to you?
More than anything else in the world.

Have you ever been called beautiful?
Mostly cute...

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
Sometimes.

What are you gonna wear tomorrow?
I do not plan my wardrobe in advance.

What were you doing at 3 am this morning?
Sleeping.

Do people ever call you by your last name?
That seems to be a guy thing.

Did you wear sunglasses today?
Sunglasses in the rain? Sounds very emo.

Do you hate the last person you were talking to?
Not a bit.

How far away are you from the person you have feelings for?
About 45 min.

Did you have a dream last night?
I beleive so, but I don't really remember anything.

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
I certainly hope so.

The first message in your inbox says?
My editor doing her thing with one of my poems.

Are you going to be hurt again soon?
Most likely.

What are you listening to now?
Little Bones - The Tragically Hip

Will you sleep alone tonight?
Most likely not.

What woke you up today?
Alarm clock.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
I don't believe in cheating.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
I seem to collect them.

What were you up to at 9pm last night?
Watching a coo korean movie called The Restless... Or talking about watching it. Not sure what time we got started.

Who's in the room with you?
Sparky, Lucky and Luene.

Are you texting anyone right now?
Barbara

What are you doing right now?
Wasting time before work.

What's your favorite type of flower?
Orchids. Orange Roses.

If you won the lottery, what's the first thing you would buy?
My Lady Liberty.

What if soda was illegal, would you still drink it?
I am pretty much against going to jail.

Are you emotionally strong?
I am a survivor... don't think that is the same.

Whats your first name?
Elizabeth.

Do you have a nickname?
Many many.

Describe how you feel right now in one word?
Desperate.

Do you have your belly button or tongue pierced?
Not yet.

Has 2009 been good for you so far?
Full of ups and downs, seems to be winding down to a close.

Do you like Thanksgiving or Christmas better?
I like Christmas better, but usually enjoy Thanksgiving more...

I have given, I have given
And got none
Still I'm driven by something I can't explain
It's not a cross, it is a choice
I cannot help but hear his voice
I only wish that I could listen without shame

Let it rain
Let it rain on me
Let it rain, oh let it rain
Let it rain on me

I have been a witness to the perfect crime
I wipe the grin off of my face to hide the blame
It isn't worth the tears you cry to have a perfect alibi
Now I'm beaten at the hands of my own game

Let it rain
Let it rain on me
Let it rain, oh let it rain
Let it rain on me

It isn't easy to be kind
With all these demons in my mind
I only hope one day I'll be free
I do my best not to complain
My face is dirty from the strain
I only hope one day I'll come clean

Let it rain
Let it rain on me
Let it rain, oh let it rain
Let it rain on me

Come take my hand
We can walk to the light
And without fear
We can see through the darkest night

Let it rain
Let it rain on me
Let it rain, oh let it rain
Let it rain on me

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
breast reduction surgery


2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
paint

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Snore... and whimper and scream when the bad dreams come...

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Almost anything that I find interesting.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Nope.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Move to Medieval Land...

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My mind.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
Ferretses.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'5"

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Sometimes in crowds, or hot small places like cars with the heat on...

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Only when something out of the ordinary surprises me.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Myself.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Death without making a difference in the world.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
hmmm... dark hair and blue eyes

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
I am a married woman, you figure it out.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Coffee is healthier.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Meat.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Pizza... thanks jerks...

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Rich peacock teal.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
I find the idea repugnant... plus I am allergic.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
I think every gift is meaningful.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Yes.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Whatever fits?

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
23

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
For what purpose?

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"Nothing in the world is the way it ought to be. It's harsh, and cruel. But that's why there's us: Champions. It doesn't matter where we come from, what we've done or suffered, or even if we make a difference. We live as though the world was what it should be, to show it what it can be."
Angel, Angel

"They tell us the world will line up and reveal we are on the right path... That the universe will give us signs..."
Story, Lady in the Water

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
Cape Breton... or a horse barn.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
I live out of the USA...

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I care too much.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Nope.

37. FIRST JOB?
stock girl when they opened Staples in Abbotsford.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Nope.

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
I thing everyone out there has the potential for many soul-mates.

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Facebook.

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Yes, several times.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Hairdressing.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No, but I needed them desperately.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Horse... or property, or both...

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
One girl named Tabitha.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes? I think so.

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Ego

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
When I left.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Nioxin #8

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I used to, but I type so much it has degraded quite a bit.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Bacon lol

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Bacon lol
WoW
Facebook...

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
No.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I hope so.

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I think benefits come with responsibility.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yes. Regardless of how you feel on the inside it is the outside that the world sees and interacts with.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Screaming or crying.

58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
Loose.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Don't remember.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
46

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I am too old to know Barney as a child.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Who me?

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Unless the Mashed potatoes have something like gravy or garlic or cheese in them the macaroni wins.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Trust.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Lizz, Libby, Bess, Lady B.

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Shapechanging/Flying

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Criminal Miinds.

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Let them go.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Fench Vanilla with chocolate crunch.

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
In my living room, I have more than one.

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Try to forget this horrible month.

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Farm/ranch.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
It would be interesting to read.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Ian type.

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Rock Creek Cinder to dull the pain.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?.
Tanna.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Ego.

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Work with animals. Specifically horses. Make art... write. Things I don't so much anymore.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
I don't like to hate anything, I find it a waste of my energy.

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Autumn, but it always seems too short.

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Chocolate.

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
I don't know anymore.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Dirty blonde.

86. EYE COLOR?
Hazel.

87. SHOE SIZE?
8-8.5

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
McDonald's my dirty little secret...

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Presto Cucina

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Allergic to seafood so it scares the hell out of me.

91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Nope.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
First crisp, clear, sunny day in autumn.

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Not really.

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Democratic socialist.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
I enjoy both but get less kisses.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Lunch.

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
I yearn for it.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
The Shack, Horses for Dummies.

Random Fact #100
I live on a seasonal cycle and reset my life every winter, wish i was dead and then start again in the spring. This is not a fun way to live.

I saw a girl just the other day.
With a pink umbrella in the pouring rain.
Make up running all down her face.
Tears in the rain are such a waste.

She said; "The world is over"
I can't believe its true.
How can it all be over when I am not over you?

They say it's over. What am I gonna do?
I'm not ready to get over you.

Staring at the ceiling, laying in bed.
Heard it on the radio, the D.J. said.
"Stars are falling from the sky."
Well don't get stardust in your eye!

He said; "The world is over".
I can't believe it's true.
How can it all be over when I am not over you?

I know the world is ending.
I'm telling you it's true.
There ain't no use pretending,
I'll ever get over you.

I saw a girl just the other day.
With a pink umbrella in the pouring rain.
Make up running all down her face.
Tears in the rain are such a waste.

She said; "The world is over"
I can't believe its true.
How can it all be over when I am not over you?

I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here

[Chorus]

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

The rain has come,
It's cold drops falling like tears.
Phoenix flying caught unawares
entranced with the fiery colors of autumn.
Is battered by the freezing realization,
that the time has come,
for darkness.

The fire has gone,
snuffed out by the hovering storm.
Phoenix mourning lies weeping.
A bedraggled thing huddled small for comfort,
made bony and frail by the wet.
stripped of beauty
and hope

The snow falls deep.
a soft numb blanket to dull the pain.
Phoenix sleeping seems dead.
Eyes staring and mouth agape with silent screams,
Aching and yearning for the sun,
and the quickening of spring
to awake again.

Don't sing me lullabies
I won't close my eyes,
I can't close my eyes
It's true,
I'm doomed
'til dawn
shines through
Got too many things to do
Got friends to see,
I can't miss a thing
It's true,
I'm through
I'm screwed,
unglued

I won't close my eyes, I can't close my eyes,
I never close my eyes
You see, they're always there with funny hair,
Oh, I'm so scared

It happens to me every night
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me
They always want to take a bite
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me
And if you think this isn't real
I'll show you wounds that never heal
To them I'm just a happy meal
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me

Make the coffee black as night
Help me through the night
I know their appetite for me
I'm meat
but I'm sweet
as can be
And if I do too much booze
I begin to snooze
I hear the big old floppy shoes
It's true,
I'm stew,
unchewed

I won't close my eyes, I can't close my eyes,
I never close my eyes
See, they're always there with that funny hair,
Oh, I'm so scared

It happens to me every night
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me
They always want to take a bite
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me
And if you think this isn't real
I'll show you wounds that never heal
To them I'm just a happy meal
Can't sleep, the clowns will eat me

My Grandfather was a WW2 Vet who served as an engineer in the RAF. He was posted all over, including Egypt.They used to dig a hole 10 ft deep and put their tents over the hole. They slept in the hole so they did not get shot by snipers. He was shot down once and survived, He had to remove burnt bodies from planes so they could reuse the plane parts.

My Great Grandfather was in WW1 and the Boer War, he was a gattling gunner in the trenches and burnt off all his fingertips.These are some of the the things that need to be Remembered.We need to put stories to the names of all those who have served through the various wars so we can stay connected to those that serve now. Lest We forget

Don't read ahead, just copy and paste the following into a NEW bulletin BEFORE you read the answers at the bottom. Then answer the following questions one at a time WITHOUT LOOKING AHEAD with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read what each answer means at the end.

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who's with you?
Ian

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
Pregnant Deer

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
Try to pet it, but it most likely runs away.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house. How big is it?

3 bedroom farm house. The barn is much bigger.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?

The house isn't but the field is.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?

A turkey dinner set for many.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?

Tin Cup

8. What do you do with the cup?

Fill it with water from the hand pump.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at a body of water; what kind is it?

Lake

10. How do you cross that body of water? Do you get wet?

Swim









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The ANSWERS

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship. Basically, how you perceive your friends.

8. What you do with the cup is how you treat your relationships.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of your libido.

10. The way you cross the body of water and whether you get wet represents how sexually active you are.

Cruisin' Mos Espa
In my Delorean
War's over
I'm a peacetime mandalorian

My story has stumped
Star Wars historians
Deep in debate,
Buffet plate at Bennigan's

Rhyme renegade
Sure to penetrate
First and second offense
I won't hesitate

Got a job to do
And Darth's the guy that delegates
Got something against Skywalker
Someone he really hates

I don't give a fuck
I'm after Solo
For all I care
He could be hidin' at Yoda's dojo

Gotta make the money
Credit's no good
When the jawas runin' shop
In your neighborhood

Think you can cook
I got a grappling hook
Let's make this quick
'Cause I'm really booked

I'm a devious degenerate
Defender of the devil
Shut down all the trash compactors
On the detention level

chorus
My backpack's got jets
Well I'm Boba the Fett
Well I bounty hunt for Jabba Hutt
To finance my 'Vette

wicky wicky woo

Well I chill in deep space
A mask is over my face
Well I deliver the prize
But I still narrow my eyes
'Cause my time
I don't like to waste.

Get down

I'm a question
Wrapped inside an enigma
Get inside the slave one
Find your homing signal

From Endor to Hoth
Ripley to Spock
I'll find what you want
But there's gonna be a cost

See, my name is Boba Fett
I know my shit is tight
Start not actin'right
You're frozen in carbonite

Got telescopic sight
Flame throwers on my wrist
You still don't get the gist
Spiked boots are made to kick

Targets are made to hit
You think I give a shit
Yo mama is a bitch
I see you in the Sarlaac Pit

You just flipped my switch
Integrity been dissed
You scratchin' on my itch
You know I shoot to get

Got bambinas at cantinas
Waitin' to lick my lusty lips
So I'll let you get back inside
Your little space ship

Give you a head start
'Cause I'm the sportin' kind
Consider the starting line
The sneaky smile I hide inside

Hope you have hyper drive (drive)
pray to stay alive ('live)
Don't try to slip me a five
'Cause I never take a bribe

To the beat of a different drummer
Bad ass bounty hunter
Let no man put asunder
Or else they be put under

As in six feet
Got an imperial fleet
Backin' me up, gonna blow up
Any attempt to defeat

They gotta death star
Got four payments on my car
Hand it over to hammer head
At Mos Eisley bar

He used to carjack
Now he's a barback
Just goes to show how you can
Get back on the right track

As for me that's not an option
Can't say that with more clarity
Me going legit would be like
Jar Jar on speech therapy

Chorus
My backpack's got jets
Well I'm Boba the Fett
Well I bounty hunt for Jabba Hutt
To finance my 'Vette

wicky wicky woo

Well I chill in deep space
A mask is over my face
Well I deliver the prize
But I still narrow my eyes
'Cause my time
I don't like to waste.

Get down

Slice you open like a Taun Taun
Faster than the Autobahn
Or a motorbike in Tron
Do the deed and then I'm gone

Jaba has a hissyfit
Contact Calrissian
Over a colt, the plan unfolds
No politic is legit

Back in the day
When I was a slave
Living life in the fast lane
Like in a pod race

My mean streak tweaked
I became a basket case
So this space ace
Split that place, poste haste

Took up a noble cause
Called the Clone Wars
'Cause life's not all about
Girls and cars

Getting fucked up
In fucked up bars
See, I'm not a retard
Or gay like de Barge

I'm large and in charge
With a face so scarred
A cold black heart
That's been torn apart

The Sith wish that they
Had a dick so hard
'Cause it's long long ago
In a pussy far far

Call me master, 'cause I'm faster
Than Pryor on fire
I no longer have to hot wire

I'm a hunter for hire
With no plans to retire
And all the sucka MCs
Can call me sire

Chorus
My backpack's got jets! (jets jets jets)

Well I'm Boba the Fett! (the Fett the Fett)

Well I bounty hunt for Jabba Hutt, (Jabba Hutt Jabba Hutt Jabba Hutt)

...To finance my 'Vette (my 'Vette my 'Vette my 'Vette my 'Vette)

No Lying

Can you fill this out without lying?

Yes

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

my finger? I chew on it sometimes when i am thinking.

Have you ever kissed anyone named Matthew?

Maybe on the cheek?

Where was your profile picture taken?

On Facebook: Jon and Mary's farm at the last Workshop

Can you play guitar hero?

sort of

Name someone that made you laugh today?

Kerry

How late did you stay up last night and why?

I think I went to be around 12... My brain went dead after I got home from fight practice. I tried to work on Starwars while watching TV, but I couldn't remember anything I read, so I just went to sleep.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?

I like being close to my friends, but I wish i had a farm.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?

Not that I can remember.

Which of your friends lives closest to you?

Kealey LOL

Do you believe ex's can be friends?

I have never really managed it. I usually stay with someone until I hate them.

When was the last time you cried really hard?

Sometime this week? Been really tired and emotional lately.

Where are you right now?

Living Room

What bed did you sleep in last night?

Mine, With Ian.

What was the last thing someone bought for you?

KARISSA BOUGHT ME COFFEE!!!

Who took your profile picture?

Maeve? Or Jon...

Who was the last person you took a picture of?

Kealey in the dress of DOOM.

Was yesterday better than today?

They both had thier ups and downs... I think maybe yes?

Are you mad about anything?

Not mad, just frustrated. I suck at communication :P

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

Yes, they can be. If both side WANT them to be.

Are you a bad influence?

Yes?

Night out or night in?

Depends how much money I have LOL

What items could you not go without during the day?

iPhone... hugs.

What does the last text message in your inbox say?

Hey could we cancel tomorrow were gonna be making hay let me know what other day will work.

How do you feel about your life right now?

impatient... poor LOL

Do you hate anyone?

I have found it is rarely worth the time.

If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find?

Outpost mail.

Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?

Yep. Though if they were looking for prescriptions I might not I guess?

Has anyone ever called you perfect before.

Ian.

What song is stuck in your head?

I Dare You to Move - Switchfoot

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?

Since they would have to climb onto the roof above the door to reach it? A friend?

Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?

Not really... I am 32 and haven't even started breeding for myself yet.

Fire Masamune by ~MattTheSamurai on deviantART

You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away-

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world-
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

If walls break down, I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I’ll be there for you
You’ve saved my soul
Don’t leave me down, don’t leave me down

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world-

Ooooooooh

All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-

Ooooooooh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight (oooooooh)
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-

All the stars, are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you-

She told him she'd rather fix her makeup
Than try to fix what's going on
But the problem keeps on calling
Even with the cellphone gone
She told him that she believes in living
Bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards
And upsidedown
Don't say so long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spend today away
Cuz today will soon be

Gone, like yesterday is gone,
Like history is
Gone, just trying to prove me wrong
And pretend like you're immortal

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every day we borrow
Brings us one step closer to the edge (infinity)
Where's your treasure, where's your hope
If you get the world and lose your soul
She pretends like she pretends like she's immortal
Don't say so long
You're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to makeup
Today will soon be

Gone, like yeterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on,
Your going going gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like your immortal your immortal

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We're so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra
Like Elvis and his mom
Like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
My highschool dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long

Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash,
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And roto-tom fills
Life's more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings
End up in wills we got information in the information age
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow
Brings us closer to the God who's not short of cash
Hey Bono i'm glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living

A life philosophy for everyone.

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